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| Sunday, May 22nd, 2005
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10:26 pm
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So yeah.... there is some confusion. You see, I am high in spirits, but the way my personality works is that I have to share the spirit... or it starts to question itself. I get reallllly lonely really fast, and it doesnt help when people who stopped talking to me start again (lame guy in particular), and when the people you are dating stop talking to you. I form a lot of attachments to people it seems. I am not materialistic, but i sure do hold people highly. god damn.
i feel i need to learn to distance myself a bit to balance out. and since a lot of people have lately been making their distance known to me, I'll just give them what they need. i've spent a week alone, and that is the LONGEST I have been by myself in a VERY VERY long time. and i am starting to get to know myself again, which i do like. so dont worry. im not depressed. life is beautiful.
current mood:  curious
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| Saturday, May 21st, 2005
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11:15 pm - alone
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i've realized i hate being alone. and i am alone a lot. so now... i guess i will just make myself start liking it.
goodbye world, i am becoming a full time hermit.
current mood:  sad
current music: A.C. Newman
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| Wednesday, May 4th, 2005
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12:59 am - Time to leave
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"Welcome to Chinese Restaurant please try your NICE CHINESE FOOD with CHOPSTICKS the traditional and TYPICAL of chinese GLONOUS history and CULTUAL!" said my packet of chopsticks from the horrid wanfu. Ayde, Ryan, Alex, Olivia, Mina, and I went here tonight around 12. No one has any idea how fucking weird this place is. It is set up like a fifties diner with neon lights outside and these weird turquoise and purple arches, silver and red booths inside with a checkerboard floor.... they serve chinese food here... what the hell?
We walked out, I grabed a handful of rootbeer barrels, and I layed in the bed of Olivia's truck numbing my mouth. Watching the sky made me feel like I wasnt in the city anymore. I miss home so much.
current mood:  blah
current music: Jim Guthrie
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| Monday, May 2nd, 2005
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1:31 pm
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School is almost out. I just need to breathe in.
I hate my roomate. HATE HATE HATE
Just needed to get that out.
Ive been making better friends with this guy ryan, we just get it, ya know?
Hes convinced me to get a radio show here at UT. Wouldnt that be just fucckin amazin?
I have been having some KILLER ANXIETY. I hate it. I just need to chill. Or smoke some ganj or something.
As soon as I am back in fredericksburg everything will be wonderful.
Just to breathe air that isnt thick will be a treat. I really would like to transfer to someplace not quite so metro.
This is more like a letter to myself. Lumlublulib gagagawera
internet must die
current mood:  anxious
current music: like radiohead man
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| Monday, April 25th, 2005
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12:46 am - ahhhhh
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I just love everything right now....
i feel like the universe is totally just embracing me, and that is one fucking amazingly good feeling to feel.
it seems that i had recently taken a lot for granted... and the fact is I have everything I have ever wanted at this time.
I think about the future and sometimes feel abandoned when things haven't happened yet... fuck it is so stupid.
ANYWAY, I am trying to think of a creative way to say thank you to the universe/god/goddess/the earth whatever the higher power is...
and so far all I have is a livejournal post. Feel free to drop suggestions!
Namaste,
Wade
current mood:  loved
current music: Joanna Newsome!
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| Sunday, April 10th, 2005
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5:01 pm
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i love how everything just comes together.
life is lovely
current mood:  content
current music: kenna
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| Saturday, March 26th, 2005
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4:15 pm - beautiful day
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| Sunday, March 20th, 2005
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7:51 pm - this truth
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as much as we would sometimes like.. we can never recreate the past
going to fredericksburg might have been a mistake
i see things how i would like them to be
but things always crumble once i remove the mold.
where in austin do i need to be?
i am truly unhappy at UT, but I did work hard to get here.
austin is glamour to be visited on weekends
im ready to start a new chapter
this depressing, alone, urban life is getting old
current mood:  contemplative
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| Saturday, March 12th, 2005
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2:05 pm - im so happy
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it is so wonderful to be back here in fredericksburg.
something i thought i would never say.
the mindset sucks... but i have met the most beautiful individuals here in this odd town.
the nights are windy and mysterious as everything turns green again.
last night beneath quilts and sky a candle burned glowing our faces up,
as we laughed and talked under the stars... oh my the stars...
and we smoked the star making machinery as well
katie in my black hoodie,
allison in a flowered skirt, my red cardigan, and shaggy black hair
cora goofy and all smiles
jackie covered in cascarones confetti
and myself in my old maroon sweater bought from st. venny's that morning
all wrapped up in an old quilt.
current mood: grateful
current music: decemberists
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| Monday, March 7th, 2005
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7:14 pm - i dont really know where this is going
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i feel very much like my old self again.
listening to my folk music and burning incense.
dobie can fuck itself.
the sky wasnt gray today.
current mood:  lonely
current music: Joanna Newsom - Peach Plum Pear
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| Saturday, March 5th, 2005
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4:01 pm - this is what march makes me feel
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to anyone who might be reading;
the sky is gray, again. i only remember a few days this year when it has not been.
a gray sky day can actually be quite beautiful if you share it right.
i miss cora and katie. more than i miss anything. i think that everytime i breathe in this gray air
im just going to let my ever-watering eyes just let go..
i think about certain days in my life that make me bitter that a setting sun and my heavy eyelids took away.
these days are usually centered around these two wonderful people.
i am sufficating here.
current mood:  melancholy
current music: Sufjan Stevens
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| Sunday, January 9th, 2005
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9:49 pm - pink rose green tea
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Do we all plan on living somewhere remote someday? In a cottage by the sea, where you take your rickety brown bike with a basket into the village, while a tea kettle and a loved one wait your return to home after you fetch a bag of flour to finish the bread you will kneed and bake when you are back? Probably not, because it seems that most of us end up going into the starbucks around the corner and ritually walking to school or work, and return to our suburban homes and ignore the white walls. But, I wish for the former. I want the earthy life, and scars on my hands from candle making. The reason we end up with the white-wall life is because we don’t care about it enough to think about what we really want in the future. So think. And paint your walls, god dammit.
Do you ever want to wipe off all the chapstick you put on so you can do it all over again?
Austin--
I always hate going into bookstores, coffee shops, cd stores, and other monotonous artsy fuck stores. The thing is, I fall in love every time I smell the familiar stale air conditioning and my eyes match up with the familiar browns of all the dreamy hipster boys.
I wonder what people think in their cars. I drive by and look at their expressions and it is amazing what comes of it. Do you ever wonder what people are talking about? A lot of us think so egocentrically that we forget that other people are living out their own biography. Driving to destinations, hoping for love, waiting to die. There really is a lot of purpose to every life, even if it is just to survive; that being the most basic of all reasons to exist, but people contain remarkable beauty in their perceptions as well. Everyone you meet will have something to teach you, even if you don’t care for him or her or if they smell like lint.
current mood: thankful
current music: blonde redhead
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| Thursday, December 23rd, 2004
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11:32 pm - how we forget
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Today. Today... was the exact thing i miss about my life in fredericksburg.
simple.
woke up after a night of wine and small talk at maggie's.
we went to hospice this morning and i found more mugs to add to my strage mug collection. i collect mugs by the way.
we went into this crazy second hand store called 'second chances'... and i found these rad vintage frame glasses.. and yeah
then we went out on an adventure to find some trailor house two miles out of town that supposedly some german lady sold a bunch of antiques out of...
and sure enough we found it.. it was fucking wierd, but i got some cool junk.
i spent 8 dollars today.
tonight i sat with a peppermint tea and finnished up my christmas project for cora. im pleased.
current mood: happy
current music: kings of convenience
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| Friday, December 17th, 2004
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11:11 pm - wooden spoons
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well. im back in fredericksburg and things arent totally the way i assumed they would be... but it has only been a week.
working sucks. as it always did.
friendships are the same.
im feeling really 'guy lonely' as fredericksburg has a habbit of installing...
im reading a great book: Politics (cant remember the author right this second)
days are going by fast... actually life is going reeaaaallly fast this year... its kinda scary
my mom is still annoying, my sister is more-so.
shaungocash likes my eyes...
i think im going to meditate or chant mantras or something.
-me
current mood: anxious
current music: sigur ros
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| Friday, December 10th, 2004
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1:15 am - beautiful
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today was beautiful. no clouds, a light wind, and a brilliant sun.
i ate an apple and watched people for about 30 minutes... its funny how much you get watched when you watch.
i went to the south mall grass area and did art for about 2 hours and that was incredible, i couldnt stop thinking about Cora Ann so my art created was very focused around her.
rachel posey and jenny met up with me and we all went to the spider house and i did more art.. and met some cool people.. saw the bitch kristen... haha i hate her.
i want to be a studio artist... i love it god dammit. i think i just want to be on the creative design team for a magazine or something, id be satisfied with that.
ANYWAY, the break starts tomorrow for me and I am going back to fredericksburg, this should be interesting. a month in the one place i hate the most probably. ill make the best of it.
love,
norse
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You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.
You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.
You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.
Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.
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current mood: artistic
current music: such great heights - postal service
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| Saturday, October 30th, 2004
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12:34 pm - death and graves
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Its almost Halloween!
Well, for some reason i felt it time for an update on here.
This past month's major high lights:
Classes are getting harder, my social life is getting crazier...
Every weekend i have been intoxicated in some form... nice wade... nice.
Bought the new Le Tigre album, it's rock.
re-decorated my room, it's rock as well.
Gone to a few halloween parties as a dirty office man, fishnets and everything.
Love life:
As of now, non-existing, but have been going on a few dates and there are some promising guys, but who knows, i have a great little set of friends here and that's tying me over. :)
Tonight:
Im going to the death cab for cutie and pretty girls make graves concert, which will rock.
After that Im going to an appartment party of some guy i met the other night, hes nice... apparently he thinks I'm cute... spin the bottle anyone?
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current mood:  hopeful
current music: le tigre
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| Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
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8:55 pm - handful of storm
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tonight i ran.
ran beneath a gray city sky,
as a heavy autumn rain fell upon me,
stinging and chilling my flesh,
but warming the fire of my autumn heart.
i cupped my hands and took in a handful of storm.
current mood: contemplative
current music: pretty girls make graves
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| Sunday, September 26th, 2004
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2:56 am - synth pulses.. kiss it better
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here i am. in austin... my favorite city on the planet.
i cant believe i actually live here.
i havent posted in ages.
i havent had much of a free moment.
tonight was your typical austin night, mozarts on the lake.. mocha granitas chocolate mouse and a cigarette... three demonic pleasures.
i miss my old life in fredericksburg this much: |___|
i miss certain people there this much: |________| x infinity
i am in love with a guy who works behind the counter in my dorm... whom the quija board has INFORMED of him having similar feelings and is a cancer (astrologically)... now if only i knew his name. sigh.
well im off to dream
g'night
--norse
me in austin:
wow im smiling!
current mood:  horny
current music: the start
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| Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
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3:18 pm - well isnt this dandy.
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i 'came out' this morning to my mom. she was very very accepting to it. she said her best friends in high school were gay and that she has no problem with me being this way. she also mentioned that she simply guessed it all these years but never made an issue of it. i told her i loved her. I LOVE MY MUMMY! everything is perfect.
current mood:  relieved
current music: communique, nothing lasts for ever
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